Hello
Hello Suci is here again
How
are you reader? I hope you guys are okay
For
those who lives around Medan, I hope you guys are okay, Medan still ruthless
with the heat. Please stay hydrated, wear sunblock, protect your body from the
direct sunlight. Also consume a lot of Vitamin C too!
And
for the other reader outside this tropical area, we welcomed spring very well,
I see everything is pink including the StarBucks merchs. And that’s good, I
love Pink.
Careful
with the pollen yeah? Wear masks and please avoid to stay long outside the
house. I don’t know what happened
outside there but I hope the sun is shining and the temperature getting high a
bit.
Ah…
April almost over yeah? It means payday is near for me hahaha
Anyway
Happy Easter for those celebrated it. I hope you guys have an eventful Easter.
And for Indonesian, Happy Belated Kartini Day. Women all around the world and
Indonesia, let’s work harder this year too.
I
have a long weekend this Easter. My Mom is coming over to Medan right now. I
was very panicked before she came because I need to balance my house chores
with my tiring work. Is not that I complaining I’m just very confuse to
balanced my energy and time, since this is the first time I left by my own
accord to take care of the house since I became a teacher.
Man,
I really missed my mom, I am glad she is okay. Thanks mom.
While
I was in my blissed out off time, i felt very content, it’s been a while since
I feel not to rush things you know. Usually I always rushed my things. Since I
wake up in crack ass morning, to my sleeping time. I don’t actually remember
what I did in the daytime but yeah, sometimes I don’t realize that time
actually flies.
On
Saturday I really enjoyed my time, and right now I also feeling like that too.
It’s
been years and I feel I want to cry my eyes out. You know when you just lie dow
on your favorite spot, and listening to a calm music or your favorite music?
Yeah, usually I am in a bad headspace when I am in that position, trying to
calm myself because holy hell life just crushed you with things like work,
study, debt, money, and all of that jazz.
But
that day, right now, I feel I want to cry because holycow I am so happy, so so
happy and content, and.. I just feeling overwhelmed you know.
I
feel home. I am too busy to recognize myself and surrounding until today I feel
coming home, with my mommy is here. Looking out for me.
If
you asked myself a year ago, I would blatantly tell you that I hate around my
parent, or just my family member in general. Because as I said before, I am too
busy to recognize myself and surrounding until I forgot how much they love me.
I’m
starting to recognize my mommy and daddy more, appreciate their hardwork and
never ending love, and try my best to be a better adult so they don’t have to
worry and so I can finally can take care of myself better haha
I
often missed my family too. Usually I really hate when I need to go back to my
home town. But now I feel if I have enough time and money I would go home
immediately.
So
reader, for those people out there, I know family is not just by blood, i know
that feelings very well. And I know sometimes family are the toxic one.
But
if you were given a chance to have a good relationship with your blood family,
let’s do that. Because either we like it or not. They were the person we looked
up before. And if you can’t and the wound is too deep. Let’s be family
together.
Let’s
build a home
Because
feeling alone in a world we don’t know is very painful
I
hope you stay strong
I
know it’s hard
See
you,
Lots
of Love
Suci
<3
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